The Law of Choice says that we have free-will and choice, we are
never powerless, we can change our perception of people, places, and
things...
I often have said at meetings that the greatest gift
my Higher Power has given me is the freedom of choice. I still
have free will over my life, I still have power over how my life is
run.
I am an alcoholic. Some would say I am powerless over
alcohol. To a certain extent this is true. I am powerless
over alcohol when I drink it, yet I have power over it when I leave
it alone. I still have the freedom of choice on whether I want
to drink or not to drink.
By the Grace of God I have been sober for 19 years... yet I have
never felt that I could NOT drink. Today, I have chosen not to
drink. Who knows what my choice will be tomorrow. Some
might say, that I am playing russian roulette with this attitude of
mine. I beg to differ.
One that first day of my sobriety if
someone told me that I could never drink again, I doubt I would be
sober today. Never is a very long time. These 19 years of
being sober would mean little to me because “never” was still in
my mind.
The pressure of “never” would have me on edge all
the time. I couldn't enjoy sobriety because it was “never”
enough.
AA says to stay sober for the day. Just 24
hours. We can do that. Just take care of today. Tomorrow
will take care of itself. Those 24 hours give us the freedom of
choice. To drink or stay sober. There isn't a “never”
attached to it... it's just for today.
That freedom of choice
gives me the power to lose my fear over alcohol. I still have a
ton of respect for alcohol. I know what it has done to me, both
as a child and as an adult, but I have no fear of it. That fear left
when I realized I had a choice.
This freedom of choice also
holds true with every aspect of my life. That person I struggle
with as a neighbor or a coworker, can change when I realize I have a
choice over how much power I give them over my life.
Whether a
person is an alcoholic, or an addict, or a gambler, or a sex addict,
or whatever else the addiction may be, The Universal Law of Choice
gives that person a second chance at life. And with every
choice taken with that second chance the gift of life is seen more
clearly.
For me, the clarity was realizing that I am a human
being. I have made mistakes but I am not a mistake. I did
bad things but I am not a bad person. And with this in mind, I
began to understand that what my parents did was a bad thing but they
weren't bad people. They made many mistakes but they weren't
mistakes.
The truth is that they did the best they could with
the tools they had. Just as I did the best I could with the
tools handed down to me...
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