Perfect?

ACOA's Step 6 says that we Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

As a child of an alcoholic I learned to be perfect.  Perfect meant lying, it meant being deceitful, it meant that
whatever it took to be perfect I would do.

As an alcoholic, I learned even more how to be perfect.  It involved more lying and began evolving into
manipulation.

Whatever it took to stay perfect I would do.  Until eventually that perfect world exploded and all the lies and
deceitful thoughts and manipulative games were exposed.

That day perfection died...

Perfect?

there was a time where it was perfect

thoughts were perfect

clothes? Perfect

mind? Perfect

center of the Universe… it was all perfect

yet… some didn't see the perfection

they were quick to point out faults

it wasn't a fault… there were reasons

children of alcoholics can find millions of them

perfect… yes perfect victims

what do they know?

Don't need that negativity

everyone gets angry

everyone loses their job

it's just part of being perfect

for years this illusion of perfection was life

jobs came and went

friends, lovers, and even marriages

all came and went

no one could handle this perfection

perfection is shattered when God steps in

dropping to knees humiliated

hate looking in the mirror

perfection is replaced with disgust

praying for forgiveness… humility comes

eyes are opened… beauty is seen

a beauty that only one can feel

a beauty that can only be shared with One

yet others see it…

a new being… spiritually centered

what happened yesterday no longer mattered

what happens today is perfect

perfect because He is in charge

He created this day to be enjoyed

and that is Perfect